Day 11: Leftovers and Cheesecake

It was time. I needed a break. All the food prep this week was wearing on me and I just wanted to sit one out. Plus, we had leftovers from nearly every meal so far. That, is amazing to me. We both had such monster appetites before it was rare to see a leftover in this house… let alone one that got eaten! I actually think I liked the enchiladas better rewarmed on the second day. I did make new guacamole because we polished off yesterdays. Aside from that lunch was easy peasy.

I couldn’t go the whole day. I wanted a cheesecake I had seen hereand I figured today was a good day to make it. I did use flash pasteurized pomegranate juice. I figure it may knock me down to 95% raw for the day but poms are not in season right now and if it keeps me riding the raw train I am at peace with it. At any rate, the cheesecake was out of this world. I did make a change and top it with raw chocolate sauce instead of the pomegranate seeds because I sooo did not have fresh pomegranates or the time to painstakingly place each seed down only to crunch through them later. I do think that this cheesecake would be more appropriately named “Pomegranate Coconut Cheesecake” due to the amount of coconut oil in it it takes on a lovely tropical taste and aroma. I will definitely be making it again. I am still in awe of how accurately the texture matches that of ”normal” cheesecake!!

I also made Neil another pan of brownies and made some chocolates. The chocolates are still setting up but looked quite promising! I am continually in awe that I wrote off this way of living for so long. I mean, most people just never hear of it and go on their merry way. I worked for Wild Oats for a decent period of time and heard people chatter about it… yet still wrote it off.

Each day gets a little better. I know eventually I am going to have a rough day. I am ready for it. I know that it will not be as rough as the day I got on the scale just a few pounds shy of the 200 mark. I know that it will only be a day. I can get through it. As I walked today I visualized myself at goal. It’s weird but I actually had a hard time seeing it. One of my friends said yesterday “oh so you want to see yourself how we see you.” That. right there. is exactly it. I want my confidence back. I want to walk into a room and feel GOOD about who I am. I know if I stick to this path it WILL happen. I am very blessed in the fact that I have people surrounding me that love me for exactly who I am every day. However, I am ready to love myself for who I am and I think this is the direction I have to head to get there. I am sticking to it this time. I am sick of being the person who tries everything. I am NOT trying this… I am DOING it. It won’t be done either. It will be a life switch. I am sure we’ll eat cooked at some point, but I don’t ever want to return to SAD eating. Just healthful food with a bit of heat every now and again. I want to feel this good forever. Nothing has ever tasted as good as having this much energy feels. EVER.